240904 -

2012-02-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

Don't ever try to get a taken man to cheat.
Because if he does cheat on her for you,
He'll cheat on you for another girl too.

; Love

~

2012-01-06T17:56:00.001+08:00

I'd rather hurt because of the truth, than feel good because of a lie.

看KAI点!

2011-12-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

I'm soooo busy recently.
Exercising/ K.dramas/ Gossips/ Meet up

I love all my friends ;

Thanks to my beloved bff for the dinner @ Mandarin Gallery recently.
& all the gossiping catch up sessions we had
The night ended off so well.

My dearest shawa for the expensive birthday gift.
Those motivation she gave, late night out
She never failed to be there for me whenever i needed her
We'll enjoy ourselves tonight & tomorrow :)

My 看KAI点 group who cock with me.
Lime-ing each other, meet ups, secret sharing, business developing.
They're wonderful, the never failed to make me so hurt & reflect LOL !
Those gym/swimming sessions which made me even motivated
I know some "kok" is stalking my blog too :)

My bunch of BSPL, who care so much about me.
Never fail to put a smile on my face whenever i'm at work
The tolerate my attitude & grumpy at times, wahahaaa.

Lastly, kim hyun joong ! LOL
Been burning my exercise night the whole of this week.
Chasing 김현중 's drama.

Christmas became so special to me this year.
Thanks to people whom love me

Hopefully 2012 will be better :)

True

2011-12-21T09:47:00.003+08:00

" When people walk away from you, let them go.

Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you,

and it doesn't mean they are bad people.

It just means that their part in your story is over. "

你的爱情像游戏，我却爱的很彻底

2011-12-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

曾经不弃不离，你却不在意。
只有你满脸的嫌弃。

I'd enough, i thought im well & strong enough to face everything.
When i come to realise ystd, im still standing at the same spot where you left.

"GWGB" brain wash me, console me, joke with me, stand by me.
Its affecting me still, somehow.

I am tired, i need a good rest.

Happy 22nd Birthday :)

2011-12-12T17:16:00.001+08:00

A little update on dec9 :

A short getaway this weekend :)

2011-10-18T14:03:00.003+08:00

Heart that is once broken still fragile, now shattered into pieces.

I hate this feeling, i am like a downright loser.
Ive lost my everything which is so precious in my life.
My precious pride, my time, my f'd & more .

I am so tired now, so tired that ive lose all the anticipation for my weekends.
I couldn't concentrate myself at work, i cry most of the time alone.
I hated myself so much now, i need to rant.

I hate blogging bout all my unhappy feelings.
Everyone thought that im cheerful, infact not.

I came to realised that, i dont have a friend who is there.
Pathetically do not have.
Friends in my life come & go, they dont stay for long.

I am so tired, i need to end everything.

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

goodbye my twentyfournine.

HURT so bad.

2011-10-10T17:49:00.004+08:00

Every part of me is in pain.

I'm so stressed up, i wanted so much to end everything.
HATED, & felt disgusted by every single things.

Easily affected.
Why can you live your live happily, when im not.
When youre the fucking one who stir up all the shits.

You still can enjoy yourself during the weekend.

Spent my weekends alone at home stressing & thinking.
What on earth went wrong ?
What did i fucking do to deserve all these shits.

FML.

I hated the way you replied my message.
I hated the way you demanded me to do things.
I am not standing by the phone 24/7 waiting for your damn instructions.

I need to be love.
I need someone who cares.
I need someone who understand me.

I am not good at explaining/portraying myself.
No one fucking knows.

When everyone els failed me,
At least i know that i still have my dearest daddy.
Who will still be there, see you on 17th.

If i would wait for you,
I'll be drown with problems youve pushed to me.
I don't need your threaten in my life.

I need real advises & new life !
I need to lead normal life like others do, NOT LIKE THIS !

I need to concentrate on my work,
I couldn't let my personal emotion influence my performance in work.
Damn you.

2011-10-05T10:40:00.000+08:00

"It's not that i don't wanna help, there's always a limit people can do"

I never regret chosing this tough path with you
I'd enough telling myself its okay, i can deal with it.

The messed in my side, its enough to make me go berserk.
No one ever understand, ever !
Even you cant, tell me how to deal w such situation like this alone.

Hitting twenty-two on december.
This is how my twenty-one treat me.

I cant be bothered to think much now too
I broke down once ystd's evening.

who is the main source of all this shits around me ?
is it all worth it ?

two4zeronine

2011-09-15T15:27:00.000+08:00

We'll work everything out.

I love the way, how we talked this morning.
Those bitching of your co. with me
I can't imagine that we're almost seventh next saturday.

We need to start planning,
We need to get things started,
We need more trust,

I need to get all the shits outt' me.
I need to start thinking of a way, instead of just THINKING i prolly need to start DOING !

Hah.

Dearest'd.

2011-09-14T18:52:00.006+08:00

CONCENTRATION & MOTIVATION
IN LIFE.

I hated goodbyes.
I teared so hard yesterday,
I know you just wanna make me feel better.
I know you just dont want me to be sad & tear.
I know you just love me so much.

____________________________________

You no longer look the same.
The wrinkle on your face makes me sad.
I did not look at you when youre with me, clear enough.

I'll compensate whatever i'd lost this few weeks.
We'll gain whatever we lost soon.
Hopefully, by next weekend :)

Meeeeeeetings..

2011-09-06T11:54:00.001+08:00

Finally.

Counting down to 13th Sept.
To meet my dearest kin.
As well as its fatdino's birthday too!

____________________________

Heartfelt words,
Dreadful feelings,
Buckets of tears,

Thank you fatdino' for being a awesome boyfriend.
Thank you for being there for me.
Thank you for pampering me.
Thank you for the short getaway to malacca (port dickson).
Thank you for the hugs & loves youve showered me.

Thank you for loving me.

The feelings so special that i didnt even have to say a word,
and you know everything right from the start.
The special bonding in-between us.

The choking feeling of my tears down to my throat,
Yet you hugged me & say its okay.
I will have you in my life.

Thank you for wiping my tears for me =)
You made all my time waiting for you to change worthwhile =D

Fuckyou cbt & your damn gf.

2011-08-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Dislike.

Today is the most tormenting day of my life.
I'm losing the man that loved me so much for the past __ years, for 3months.
I hated the feeling of seperation.
I cried so hard.
I always thought that i'm well-prepared, i THOUGHT.

I hate the sight of the fucker when i saw him early in morning.
You dont treat like nothing has happened before.
I hate you most, thanks for taking *** away from my life.

The next three months will be tormenting for me.
I will live & work hard.

You dont have to worry bout me, i will be good.
We'll exchange our role, time for me to take care of those you love.
Bid goodbye, see you soon =D

kites in'd skyyyyyy

2011-08-17T16:24:00.001+08:00

FAKER.

somehow your act like a saint irks me.
how you gave that freaking piece of innocent face makes you like an idoit to me.

__________________________________

How should this weekend be spent.
I am so leaving my energy to next week.
Let this be a calm & relaxing one.

It would be nice if we can chill at the beach.
flying kites, riding bicycle, munching sandwiches.
IF ONLY fat'd allows this to happen. "IF"

SELFISH.

2011-08-16T13:48:00.000+08:00

The genting trip is awesome !
A short getaway, but fulfilled trip.
Bought seven pairs of shoes back, happy giggling.
& the very nice/expensive ahyat dinner .
Just that those unexpected summons on the way back.
Freak us out -.-

Thanks fat dinosaur.

Then looking forward to is hongkong next weekend.

______________________

Anyway, after all this unexpected nonsense what i can say is . . .
SELFISH is all human's nature.
you can blame yourself for being the cause of the whole incident,
but pity yourself for being the excuse people uses as a *********

but no worries, truth will be out somehow.
i'll be there for you .

We'll ignore & try to love ourself more.
ILOVEYOU MY FAT DINOSAUR !

asseyeseekay.

2011-08-11T11:40:00.000+08:00

Flu is sickening.
Dread working, but still did.

Was thinking of a short getaway this weekends with beloved dinosaur and friends. And i couldnt wait for month end arrival of my long-awaited hongkong trip. Even though i have some shits to face aftermath.

6months isnt short nor long, hope it'll pass like a blink. We'll both work hard, in order to make success.
I love you, my dearest bestest friend =)

Superjunior's Mr Simple is loveeee =D
eunhyuk.donghae.ryeowook.kunhyun.

FML.

2011-03-08T22:58:00.005+08:00

I've been tolerating.

Bad things came all at one shot, that i dont even have the time to adapt.
Fuck all my uncles & aunties.

Tried to talk to boyf.
but he seems so busy w/ his own stuffs that he couldnt even bothered.
he dont even have the time for me when i called.
well, what can i say to him then.

Cried alone at river vista that night.
who is really there for me if i really need a listening ear.
i promised myself, i will not be soft hearted anymore.

2011-03-07T00:27:00.001+08:00

有心爱你却爱不到。

。

这感觉已经不对，我努力在挽回。

2011-03-04T15:47:00.002+08:00

Even though i don't have nice gifts & sweet treats.

Still, i love my fat dinosaur.
he is the reason for me staying in this job.

No matter how hard the route ahead is . . .
i love you :)

two four zero nine - trust-timonial.

2010-12-14T14:11:00.000+08:00

TRUST.

The magical word to keep us going.
I will insist ;
Even when people tried to talk bad bout you
Even when my sixth sense hinted me
Even when my soul wanted so much to give up on you

I wanted so much to keep this six year going.

Luv, im trying very hard.

Happy 21st to QUEEN !

2010-12-09T10:31:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to me !

Things doesnt get on my way,
Bad to worst.
But luckily, my fatluv is there :)

even on my very drunk birthday, he took care of me like an queen.
LOL, love you baby!

Need 2010 to end fast!

To grow old with you ♥

2010-11-28T23:41:00.001+08:00

To grow old with you ♥

Assurance, trust is such an impt tool in a relationship.
Fattttluv, i knew your weight went up higher,
but dont worry, i'll still love you :)

Well, i still cant get over the losses over at genting the beginning of the month.
FML ! My birthday celebration this coming saturday.
Buffet @ my place w my dearest dad & family.
PUB w/ fatttluv & friends LOL, scareddddd =,=

Whoah, we went to nexx mall w/ fatttluv, jon, wang&jess, niii.
i seriously need to go there and shop again,
muthafooker said shopping today but ended up having buffet till closed.

LOLOLOL. bth, this is sick !

你离开我要不要庆祝

2010-11-03T11:14:00.000+08:00

Tired max.

This year has been an unlucky year, many shits happen in my family & people around me. I must start learning, to appreciate, to not take things for granted, to grow up, to treasure.

Ystd was a bitch, just that start of november and im emo all over. Not enough sleep, very tired physically, emotionally, that i broke down and acting like an insane at home, my grandma became very pissed off with me.

Anyway, i got to thanks my best boyfriend for being there for me. She came down all the way to accompany me, brought me for dinner and being my listening ear. LOL, thanks ah. If possible, will look forward for this thursday stay-over at your place to "ton" and pillow talks =)

And as for you ;
Ive lost for words and faith in you, everything i do, i do for you.
How bout you ?

Did you spare me a thought when you did such things that will hurt me indirectly ? No, you just thought that i was over possesive. You just thought that i dint gave enough freedom for you. See, what did i get when freedom is given to you ? Those were shits, heartbreak that hurts like hell. Fuck you seriously.

You're still acting funny, still continue lying and make me like a joke. Ive ignore the world advise to be with you, to be with someone like you who doesnt treats me like another half. I fucking hate you now.

Continue, she was your career, another one was your soul mate, the other one was your finance consultant, the last one was your life-time insurance, These are for now.

Your female-friend(S) which you want to pursue further for.
I'm just another female friend of yours.

Being together was painful yet thrilling. (我不怕爱的残酷)
I love playing with fire, so ive got to accept the thrill.
FML.

Need a good rest.

Sickly weekends.

2010-10-24T15:52:00.004+08:00

FML.

Fever came ystd, which burnt my saturday.
The feeling sucks, went cineleisure to watched child's eye.
But i was asleep most of the time.
Head for bowling, at that time my body already cmi.

Home to rest.

I'm so gonna make up to my body.
Heading for buffet today, please wish me good luck.
Take care people :)

_______________________________

@11.20pm

strike fatbeee's carplate, 75 bucks.
So my dinner is freeee, heeeehee.
Sakura buffet @ the west side of singapore.
not really fantastic.

Ah Chew aftermath,
tried the papaya-dontknowwhat, not my type.
LOL. anyway happy 24th to my fat.

Continue my show.
& there goes my weekend :(

20.10.2010

2010-10-20T22:35:00.002+08:00

Today's such a nice date :)

.
.
.

But such a bad day :(

: take a deep breathe & pretend that everythings alright.

Painnnn.

2010-10-14T23:18:00.001+08:00

FMTA.

toothache sucks to the bits seriously, feeling abit feverish.
I'm in pain now.
I'm such a problematic bitch.

I'm . .
Feeling contented that my boyf treated me like a princess.
I've been ignoring him the whole of my afternoon, sleeping away.
Dint text or call him.
So he uses his sis no. to call me at night.
He dint even know ive skipped work today, again.

Anyway,
ive received a surprise from my boyf who came down all the way just to send me my favorite KOI, though i still wasnt feeling that well dint have much appetite. But the thoughts really counts. Beeeee, i love you even for the slightest thing you did to please me.

I hate my body for giving me so much problems.
So much that i need to go for a full body check-up. DAMN !

& my phuket trip was fun overall, even if i dint get to shop :)
& Genting trip confirmed.
& planning for taiwan trip next jan.

Phuket :)

2010-10-05T14:47:00.003+08:00

Flying over the rainbows.

I will be flying off in another few hour time, to phuket.
Land of smiles with fatbeee & colin/sarah.
Relax myself, stuff tomyam & yummy food.

Will be back on Saturday.

Till then . . .
Bye Singapore . . .
Hi Thailand . . .

With lovesssss.

stressed max.

2010-09-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

你不知道的事

I felt very upset the way you phrase things, never thought that you'll hurt me.
Muthafooker. Okay at least i'm not so affected now :)

I went bugis dessert with ni few hours ago
& i saw my boyf's car pass by, chaoooo.
Didn't told each other that we're both out, but for god's will i saw him.
Luckily he was with colin, arbo i will murder him on the spot.
Nice gossiping sessions, it'll have more to come.

Office things is making me crazy ttm.
I seriously dont know what my boss wants.
Contractor & Sub-cons also giving me problem
FML ! luckily my team is giving me their solutions & moral support every now & then.
If not, i think i'll just kill myself infront of the contractor !

gonna watch my tvb variety show, funny max.

sixth.

2010-09-25T03:32:00.001+08:00

Fatbeeee,

Happy sixth, to my two four zero nine.
We've been thru alot, ups and down.
This man left me a few times and eventually came back to me, no matter what he did before is the past.

I just love him for the present.

luv,rach

two four zero nine

2010-09-23T22:59:00.005+08:00

Neeeeeed a getaway so badly . . .

Anyway, my diet plan has been smoothly in progress.
So now that i've eat lesser, cut down on soft drinks & supper. Makes me felt so much lighter in my body and sins. LOL.
Thanks to my dad for his Reduze ;)

Okay, i'll have oats & sweet potatoes for breakfast tomorrow :):)

Tomorrow, its the sixth year being together with fatbeee. And we'll be heading to Phuket early october to rest and relax ourself, a short break free from those irritating nonsense that has been complaining at work every single day.

Alright i cant wait . . . .

:/ Fatbeeee; Happy sixth year anniversary to you, i love you :)

DEEE EYEE YI TEAAAAA

2010-09-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

Was never serious like this before :)

anyway, i was like laughing when fatbeeee told me bout what that lady has demanded him/me to do.
cheeeput, youre seriously not a big deal.
money cant buy you true love, so what if he's with you . . .
you can never buy his trueself.

LOL. so now whose the pathetic one ?
nevermind, i have been very tolerant please dont test my patience :)

neeeway, i spend my last week preparing for fatbeee's birthday.
bbq & drinking on friday.
& mbs on saturday :)
a uber long weekend to relax with my fatbeee.

:/ i wish all fucked up things & human to end fast . FML.

FMFL !

2010-09-06T16:10:00.002+08:00

I'm like an angry bitch today, chaocheeput.
Bad day, damn irritated :(

1. I woke up late, everything was in a mess.
2. I took my ring (bday present from dad), put into my pocket & ran out of the house.
3. I took a damn kuku bus.
4. I took a retard train.
5. I took a super nice cab, thought my bad day wasnt that bad.

then my nightmare arrived once i reach office . . .
I wanted to thumbprint my hand so that i could enter my office, i realised i dint put on my ring. So . . . & that was the time i realise i lost my ring.

I still havent got the courage to tell dad bout the news.
He'll be furious if he knows it .

SO HOW SO HOW SO HOW ?!?!

FMLFMLFML. damn swayyyyyyyyy lah.

sad

2010-09-02T17:24:00.001+08:00

I wonder if you could understand how i felt ;

Fuck, it sucks !
Just wondering if you know how i felt,
could we switch identity for a day ?

When will you learnt, its tormenting :(
Whatever i did is all bcus of you, but baby how bout you ?

L. = love or lie

2010-07-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

" It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces "

FATBEEEE

2010-07-20T15:01:00.004+08:00

♥

I promise to love you forever, every single day of forever.

my only kin.

2010-07-06T14:20:00.002+08:00

I love my dad.

I've regretted in the things that i've done to hurt in the past
I'm sorry dad.
Can i turn back the time ?

sigh

10am instead of 9am ?!?!?! FML!

2010-06-25T14:34:00.002+08:00

I need to curse !

Comfort Delgro is making me piss off like F.
Raining heavily, FML.
I'm mad late !
Thanks daddy for calling cab for me ;)

But one good thing is ;
I slept at 9pm ystd, shioknesss =D
Woke up, received a morning greeting from fatbeee.
thanks fatbeee for fetching me home,
& meeting me for lunch these few days.

Lovable x.x

I miss my fatbeeeee, cant wait to see him tonight :):):)
& Fatbeee i neeeed new bag(s)!

Sometime, all i need is to see those whom i cared . .
To be happy, thats all.

twofourzeronine-zerofour.

2010-06-24T09:26:00.000+08:00

It's twenty-fourth today ♥
Happy monthsary, fatbeeeee
(If you'd still remember)

Needed a good rest, to chase my dark circle away

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-06-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

Tired of ♥

I understand that the situation sucks now, & i know.
I understand that i should have help, & i did.
I understand that you're tired, & so do i.

I'm preventing quarrels
So i hope that you'll use your brains before you speak/accuse.
Because sometimes its insulting & hurting.
I know that you've always been reading this journal of mine,
& i seriously need to see some changes.

I hated that incident, i hated those visitors & i hated everything.
I didn't speak up, i didn't show up.
That doesn't means that im not hurt.
It has been affecting me so much that, i thought about it everynight before i sleep.

Havent been having a goodnight sleep since this week,
I need a rest =D
Nights world, Nights fatbeeeee.

No matter what, i'll still love you & you'll still be my fat'bee.

fatbeeee

2010-06-21T13:49:00.004+08:00

Hated the month of June so much,
makes me really sick when i tried recalling what happened.
A series of incident, which made me very tired.

The only thing i liked was ;
fatbeee's ord & work.
uber proud when he's able to start work immediately, the next day when he got his pink ic ;)

Totally can't wait for July's arrival !
I might be way busier back then, prolly doesn't even have time to stive if things starts to settle down. Everything will change & i've got to start right from zero, but thats also the way to prove myself =D

& Jaychou's concert was also another thing that i've been anticipating longed before showluo's :)
A stable life, income & job for the both fatbeee & me.

yzk.

2010-06-14T12:15:00.001+08:00

Seanson of ♥
fatbeee is ♥

love me tender.

2010-06-07T16:36:00.001+08:00

Season of love.
thanks b;

When i was whining bout work to boyf this morning,
a kiss on my forehead, made my day.

Wah, was so loved at that point of time :)

neeway, was going for fortune telling with b.
cant stop gossiping & disturbing w him. LOL
& ive hurt my head, cos of . . . .

LOL, i bang mine towards his. damn it !

I wanna play with desean boy & his itouch .

URGH.

2010-05-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

付出的爱没有结果

Well having enough said or explanation.
I'm so gonna save up for school & stuffs bcus i cant afford to slack now.
thankyou:)

May has been a torment month for me :(

Pamper myself after all that ive done or not ?
LOL, loves

BILLS

2010-04-14T19:55:00.001+08:00

Alright fuck _l_

My hp bill for last month is like three hundred sgd, nahbeh! Most of the usage is used when im in bkk! Suggested aunt to upgrade my line so that i could get iphone as well. Or wait for dad's five hundred voucher ?

Cant stop whining bout money after ive started work, bcus thats why i started to find that its so tough working earning bucks :(

A confirmation & increment please ;

bleu blue.

2010-04-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

Sophisticated.

I'm already looking for friday's arrival, yet it's just monday today.
needed a new layout here, its been ages =)
Anw, i need to be more serious in anything.

Including my work, priority -

luvrach

HOT N COLD

2010-04-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

Ups and downs ___

This week was torment, no elaborations is needed.

Well ystd i spent my fufil saturday over at Jusco (JB) just for lunch/dinner with B &cousins. I bought a pair of sandals at padini/vincci and some facial stuffs at elianto - the make up cleansing tissue is really good,

anw im going genting to buy more shoes with ni lah.
And this is why, i find that we're really swt & loving ystd :)

Supposedly steamboat dinner to9, but . . . .
MONDAY AGAIN !?!?!

KOI !

2010-04-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

Cramps are motherfucking sluts !

I'd enough of these cramp shits, bcus of this M i had to avoid all those cold drinks i like. FML.

I need to rest, i need a nap.
anyhow, KOI bubble tea ystd really made my dull day brighten =)
passionfruit-ayu & fresh milk tea, slurp !

sleep.

2010-04-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

Independent week ;

Weekends was well-spent with those healthy and unhealthy. I deserve a rest, a good break after those tedious stock-take and heavy work-load.

So genting on the 30th, is already booked. Lets look forward :)

But for now, i need to rest myself.

sometimes.

2010-03-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

Maybe you can fake it or real, i dont care.

Just care for me, make me feel that im loved. Thats all.
I dint expect much from you, all i need is to care for me more.

I'm stressful enough to think of other shits, i need a break.
Working was good during the past month, but now i know we're facing deep shits for the re-shuffle of the management. Who can i tell ?

When all you said was, i wasnt your boss nor colleague i cant even help.
But do you understand that, i simply just need a listening ear, just awhile will do.

2010-02-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

Monday's super blue

This cny is making me total shag out, gamble & visiting is making my dark circles bad. Lost bout 800 this cny is making me worst, lol. The average sleeping time is like 3hours per day ? Oh well, i hope for the better, pray taisui this weekend is a must !

Thailand trip is just a week away, hotel not yet booked, currency not yet change. But the mood is already here, the shop & tomyum mood. woohooo and the superb fried rice & aunt annie's ccb (cheesy chicken bites). Those friendly people around =)

Anyhow, i should look forward to 6pm arrival to be more practical. Home to changed before meeting my dearest fatty. Hope he'll bring me for some good food after his basketball session.

Please change my luck for the better, huat ah!

ryzk

2010-02-19T14:23:00.004+08:00

Life's a bitch, when loving you isnt easy.

Quit being emo, i'll make this short.
I'll make your love worthwhile when you do the same too.

Cherish.

BOB THE BUILDER CAN WE FIX IT ?

2010-02-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

Marks my first week at builders tomorrow, working in this company makes me so in-love with working & anticipating for each working day arrival. This company is expanding, huge working prospect, lots of benefits, better than automega, 5day week, 9-6 and lesser workload. Though travelling there suck, but as long as the pay & working environment suits me =) ON-FORM ! Keep telling my friends that my boss is like whoah, young and handsome, young as in he's builders ceo at the age of 29. Cool right ?

Tomorrow company half-day, planning to go for last minute shopping as ive got tonnes of things yet to buy. And during the night, hopefully i can have some alcohol intake. BOOM !

Oh, i went ttsh to visit my irritating friend earlier on. He's been admitted in hospital due to gastric problems, i cant imagine that my irritating friend becoming so quiet, so weak that he dont even want to talk.

After visiting, bitch, boyf & me went chinatown to walk. Cant imagine once so havorc friend of mine, underage-club & stuffs can become so aunty lor. SHE KNOWS WHAT I MEAN! I bought nothing but tidbits, cool =)

It's freaking 1.20am now, still hesistating whether to join boyf for supper or not. But chinatown porridge i super like !!!

& wooohooo i cant wait for my dad's YES !

RAPCH.

2010-02-06T21:25:00.002+08:00

loverlogy.

dearest love, cant you see that is hurting and killing inside. Start appreciate and cherish, imy.

Anyhow, i got wasted last night, consperm!

Hectic, yes.

2010-01-25T03:09:00.002+08:00

Self-discipline.

Saving up, not splurge.
Sleeping early & wake up early, not the other way round.
Taking train to work, not cab.
Work hard, not skipping work with excuses.
No drinking on weekdays, healthier.

Yes, setting goals in my life.

I know action speak louder than words, yes gonna start my good habits for 2010. Though i'm a little late, but better than nothing. If i never fulfil everything, at least i wished for it, once! LOL.

( Last week of my carefree live, let me enjoy it to the fullest )

First let me go shopping w my aunt tmr ;)
SWEET DREAMS!

REVAMP ?

2010-01-16T15:52:00.004+08:00

We've spent so many days & hours to clear our house for CNY this year.

ROOM : done
LIVING ROOM : done
KITCHEN : done

though bangala worker wasnt free to do it for us this, we get our hands on every single things. enjoyed the process and the end product :):)

gotta finish everything before i start work the next following month, PAINT PAINT PAINT!

BOLIAO #1 BY BOLIAO ME.

2010-01-08T03:47:00.003+08:00

Hee, anyway expired photos im here uploading cos of boredom :)

Christmas, Newyear, Weekdays, Weekends.
Than i realised most all the pictures taken are at beds, with the same black & red background. =.=

@ yaw's place drinking wine, mixed with white & champ till 8 in the morning. CLEVER! and ryan the champion of the night drank almost the biggest bottle, HO EH !

neeeway, ive sent my resume hope i get more replies back, im sick of these jobless slack life already :) goodluck!

TWO O ONE O

2010-01-04T04:08:00.001+08:00

HELLO 2010 :)

I just had Mr Bean's pizza with yaw & co just now, it was lip smacking. But i forgot to order the seafood soup which fish xie intro me until i got home =.=

Highly craving for desserts, who wanna come along with me ?

:)bye

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2009-12-26T03:53:00.001+08:00

Last christmas, i gave you my heart you gave it away and tore it apart . . . .

BULLSHIT!

Merry Christmas, this year christmas was good with a bunch of friends drinking, playing and most importantly raphael was by my side. And martell costs 220buck ystd, i was like whoah. But ystd was so happening, till raphael got drunk. GAGA OHH LALA.

Meet up @ j8 for crystal jade with NI & FISH today before beds, enjoying though there's only 5 of us I just sing like as if its my concert, GAGA OHH LALA.

Ended up for supper with fish&chris, thanks ar & the start of bitching session.

wah alot of pictures lehhhhhhhh. GAGA ;)

♥♥♥

2009-12-09T22:58:00.003+08:00

今天是。。。。

瑞琪的生日，二十岁了！
祝我生日快乐。

I've like so many pictures in my camera, smashing bday at beds. whoah.

till then,

♥rach.

WEEK(S) AGO .

2009-12-02T13:50:00.002+08:00

yoohah.

pictures, im so shag after a week of free labour.

was racking my brains, where to celebrate my bday this weekend.

NOT BURNT.

2009-11-21T09:44:00.002+08:00

Thanks dad for letting me have my saturday :):)

Peeeek.

goodnights ;

25A.

2009-11-19T21:43:00.003+08:00

I'm currently at my dad's shop very boring lah.

Luckily i brought laptop & vodafone along man, if not i'll just die of boredom. Somemore ive got to come for 5days.

damn it, weekends got burnt just like that =.=

@ 5.25am

i just had my mac'd breakfast was hesitating at first man, ok mc'muffin w egg & harshbrown was so much nicer when im drunk, bcus b' was feeding me that time :) LOL.

ok, goodmorning world & love <3

sunshine after the rain.

2009-11-19T05:03:00.001+08:00

Day three.

No matter how much ive been through today, im alright & glad. Bcus we've talked things out at the place we used to slack when we were young, we shouted and quarrel at each other, youve make me cry yet you wipe my off tears telling me it pains you seeing me cry. Promising me that you'll change & im gonna believe.

I cant wait to see you change & our movie tomorrow.

with love.

couldnt bear to.

2009-11-17T02:38:00.003+08:00

I woke up with a different feeling today, i wanted to continue my sleep cus i hate facing this reality alone. I wanted to see you change, i wanted us for the better.

I wish i hope i want us to get back together after this week, and this is the main reason why i suggested this. Just change for the sake of loving me, please.

My bday is drawing nearer, i hope that you'll be able to spend the day with me as a boyf & thats the bday wish i had for last year.

IreallyreallyLyou.

LOVE.

2009-11-13T03:46:00.003+08:00

I want this amanda satin drawstring bag from coach for my bday, its so damn cute & sexy lah!

I just wanna have it "

Stomach cramps are motherfucker, even the strongest painkiller that the doctor prescribe doesnt works on me. For damn 4days already, and im just staying at home waiting for the pain to come & go. B got no time for me either, im so lonely man.

Dear stomach, please dont burnt my weekend away :)

&&& .....
PLEASE! stop asking me for supper & feeding me with food, i wanna slim slim ! The challenge starts now :)

drink up baby :)

2009-11-12T22:08:00.004+08:00

Photos was two weeks back @ beds.

Last saturday, we was at beds too we played captain this time round was girls VS guys, shawa was there too, hahahha. Whoossh whoossh whooosh, till most of the girls got wasted. I was so dead drunk, but thanks to my boyf who took care for me & mac'd breakfast.

And i slept on his floor till the next morning _l_ nahbeh.

YES OR NO ?

2009-11-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

I should have know, actions speaks instead of words. Damn, im hitting my twenties next month and i've been slacking my life ever since my automega job. I really dont know how to survive, how to find a job for someone without any cert like me.

I hated this way, i hated everything.

I should have think of which route should i heed, i've got whole lot of plans but alot of money has to be spent too. Plus monthly, weekly expenses. BUCK UP! morale.

You'll reap what youve sow, have i ?

Anyhow, ive gotta scrimp & save for my next bkk trip in march next year. Colin has already booked the tickets for us, that will be good bcus i seriously cant wait to shop till i drop again :):)

& batam this december ?

CRY T.T

2009-11-05T04:36:00.002+08:00

A swollen arm & a broken heart.

(R)s

2009-11-02T01:11:00.003+08:00

Friday- 30' October '09

2009-10-31T03:47:00.000+08:00

What the fuck, i dropped my phone & .....

Was bloated after our buffet dinner @ Shangri-La, the line. With Kianleong, Colin, B! & girlfriends. Proceed to Kgarden aftermath, played 5/10, dice, CAPTAIN like again. One martell & 2jugs and i wasnt even high at all, damnit. I still can fb, and blog like wth.

Anyway someone gonna compensate me a new phone tomorrow, and its cool :)

2009-10-30T13:07:00.002+08:00

-

If you want the rainbow, you must to put up with the rain.

♥ Rachh-

2009-10-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

when everything just don't go your way, and thats tragic.

Just bcus of you.

@ two zero eight yck rd. Ive been waiting for you since twelve, lets see how long will you come home. I'm losing my cool, i wanted to scream now. Anw, im going ION tomorrow like finally lah. I want to watch B!'s compy tomorrow & im so getting that watch for him as a surprise if he treats me good, for valentine's next year.

The watch is not expensive, but fucking expensive. And i hope i can get mine during my bday from uncle vincent :) Ok lah, i go watch my mobtv.sg now or maybe i go stalk that bastard outside now ? LOL, i think i go have a stick first.

prada is mwuah so get me oneeee .....

2009-10-22T17:56:00.002+08:00

YAY, a happy queen =D

B! is back from taiwan, hes been very nice to get me that gucci hp strip from taipei101. And i need a new phone to go with it, iphone or blackberry, a phone noob. Ok, taiwan goodies will arrive to me soon enough ! hahha.

Ystd B! went iluma for lan, we went for bbq steamboat with his mates aftermath. They wanted a drink, so i went back home and get my martell. And drop by his mates condo at north1. Captain again, i won boyf for like five times ystd and im super proud. And i know even 1litre martell is not enough for those alcholic, they brought another johnny walker which taste like =.=

And so, B! said that yaw's gonna plan taiwan trip on january. SOSOSO, bkk or taiwan?

2009-10-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

We've braved thru storms together, till now.

SMILE :)

& i collage the photos all over the years, cool man.

Than i started realised, we've been through so much just to be together. How can i give you up just like that, and i'm sure that we gonna solve everything & work things out together. B! i love you lah, kisskiss!

Mwuah .

2009-10-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

Ystd was like whoah !

Toho for juanX2 bday, waited for princess than we proceed to Dfly. Managed to squeeze in the guestlist, with fish&co, ahwang&co. Martells & henessys. Ahbeng was also there to celebrate his bday.

PH for awhile, and jugs of beer.

Home with full blast of tipsy-ness, reek of alcohol, vomit like an idiot. And this is how i spent my saturday with my bunch of friends, cool.

i'll wait for the photos & post it inside fb.

( TO BOYF )

For you, i dont see the reason for you to contact her. And youre pissing me off, pls dont come back bcus i'll kill you. And im serious this time, and its not funny at all. Thanks.

By the time you read this, youre already half-dead and you should consider yourself lucky as youre not dead, motherfuker.

2009-10-17T18:26:00.000+08:00

blackberry or iphone ?

LOLOLOL, ystd was cool. TPY central whole day, hoegarden, fingerfood, non-stop of gossipping session at night i likeeeee. I know today will be so much cooler :):):)

Skin doctor on monday,
Vinegar pig trotters on tuesday, any orders?

heeheeeeeee .

2009-10-14T11:06:00.004+08:00

Quarrel equals to cold war lead to break up ?

No, we're just being childish for that moment. And hes going taiwan today, kind of not use to it. Anyway no law equals to cool :) And if he nvr come back with the stuffs i wanted, im slash him into two. LOL

Beds ystd, again.

To support champion royce 5-10, hahah he won that cannon martell. Ok cool, actually i open a bottle to relax with B! but its not relax at all, i almost die while playing captain. But i still remember xiaobai with his "Zhi Ki LanJiao 5000" (in hokkien) legend :)

And this morning, while i was smoking, i saw one 16/17 year old ah beng walking round and round with his 360-720 style. With a digital watch wearing on his ankle, i was like wtf ? Where's his eye, his leg can read the time meh. Really dont understand whats people thinking nowadays. What kind of fashion is that man =.=

miss & love.

(i hope got people ask me out during weekends, LOL)

2009-10-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

I just had my dinner at longbeach @ecp
followed by fondue dessert @sggardens

thank you colin&sarah :)

one word to end this post sinful.

2009-10-11T18:18:00.001+08:00

I'm back.

big M issue, wanted to settle everything as soon as possible. Than i got alot of things to do, i wanted to take my car lics, part time dip, work, many many more.

This few days im so low, so low that even B! dont even understand why.

Bkk was good, i shopped alot back. But ive given alot out also, boyf love those tee and boxer i bought, those tidbits i bought from mbk was sedap. Those tomyum goong and fried rice i likeeee. Plus the aunty annie CCB (chessy chicken bites), ebon and me laugh when we saw that. Lastly thai massage was shiok !

B! is going taiwan this wednesday, hope that i'll write out my shopping list and he'll get all for me. Heeeee, this post is like duhh.

Okay, goodbye.

2009-10-07T15:04:00.003+08:00

~~Still so into holiday mood :(~~

I am going for my interview soon :)
& B! give in to me canz! LOL.

I WANT THAT FCUK WATCH LAH !

with love,
rach.

2009-09-29T22:19:00.001+08:00

Sick.

1 more day to my bkk trip, and im falling sick. Lucky eh ?
Need to go to money changer tomorrow, and do some packing.
I hope i wont exceed my budget there :)

Time to have my medicine & sleep.

Where'd you go ?
I miss you so.

2009-09-28T19:03:00.001+08:00

Phew.

After 5bottles of henessy and 2bottles of martell.
K.O-ED credits to captain game =D
It's lucky that i dint puke my jumbo seafood out like how B! did heeee.

hais, sighing off.

2009-09-27T18:07:00.004+08:00

Partehhhh all night longgggg.

Great & busy week.
KL trip is good with good food and great peepohs. Chicken rice ball at malacca, hokkien mee at KL, lastly A&W float is like whoah. Oh and i tried the fish spa there, very ticklish, best to go when youre feeling down. Make you laugh like an LOL bitch! We almost went thailand, with our sport car hahahaaaa :)

Randomly :
two four zero nine.
Beds almost five time this week.
FEP, town.
Zouk on wednesday.
Boyf almost everyday.

Ok and lastly, BKK this thursday i smell tomyum now :):)

2009-09-18T10:10:00.002+08:00

For someone i respected the most.
I knew it clearly that this problem has affect all of us alot, espcially you & me.

The life that i used to have, those pampering and stuffs like this. No longer the same, no more laughters. But i sincerly hope that i'll be able to bring us back together, i'll try double hard. I promise and lastly, i'm sorry.

Awwww, anyway.

B! and me is great, i accompanied him for his bball and stuffs. Happily dating together, at least he gave me the strength to move on :) And we'll be going on a short weekend trip to KL tomorrow morning, to celebrate our 2409 in advance with his cousiees. I'm super looking forward to it, and dad has been kind to sponser too =)

I'm very sorry jx2, that me and kai could not be able to attend jerrel's full month on sunday, but my pressie is with the DHL man who'll be there on sun. I'll get you some sexy dress from KL, so dont worry. LOL !

Very tired, was at 25 the whole of ystd night :)
SLEEEEEEP NW.

2009-09-14T15:57:00.002+08:00

~~Maybe we should end this misery, bcus its killing me slowly~~

Maybe a short weekend get-away will make me feel better

looking forward to 2409.

I LIKE :):)

2009-09-13T17:38:00.001+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday Baby, Champion !

My dinner treat for boyf at miramar ystd, i think my tummy almost explode. We walk to beds aftermath, only 10mins walk. But we kinda lost our way at first. Level 2 again.

I rushed to seven11, to get him the Ben&Jerry's icecream for him as cake. Quite lame, but i likeeeee. Boyf was drunk after almost 20 full cups of martell on the rock at around 1230. Surprisingly awake at 130 to sing and joke with me, even went to had supper with jared.

Home, i was playing with the chupchup and he got irritated. LOL

Photobucket hang, i try again tomorrow =)
Bcus im going for MJ at pauline sis place now, she still ask me dapao fish soup for her =.=

2009-09-12T18:14:00.001+08:00

It'll be boyf's birthday when the clock strike twelve today.

We did buffet dinner and bbq at his place ystd, most of the friends he invited came. The cake that i bought was so cute luh, 2kg just nice. After his place, we headed down beds my first time there. Quite cool, but uh-huh . . .

I apologized for what happen at the earlier part, than everything went gaga aftermath. I was gossipping with edwin, playing games with cousiees. They headed jab1 for second round, okay i was quite shocked the moment i step in, i almost cried.

Anyhow, i saw chris outside jab1 ystd. I realised everyone grew up, he is married and going to be daddy this november already. OMG, just over exaggerating luh. hahhaaa

Than B' and me went home to stayover, now im back home to prepare for dinner with boyf. Ok, maid out from bathroom, my turn now !

Bye, picturess soon :):)

2009-09-10T03:23:00.003+08:00

Caught this movie on monday with B.

Boyf enjoys the movie, girlf enjoy the sleep.

EU was so much better, laughing kor so cool :)

Caught this movie today with kianleong & girlf.

Not as scary as i thought it would be, not bad luh.

But i still prefer the supper i had after the movie =)

Good9s.

2009-09-10T02:22:00.007+08:00

Im super irritated, pekchek, i feel like slapping myself now.

An hour ago, my itchy fingers thought of changing html layout with much confidence. Believing that ive absolutely no problem with it bcus ive done for like years, but today NOW i have no idea why the html gone haywire. And ive saved the layout without previewing it, fuck.

This is why b' always say that im very gek kiang (act clever).

Ive tried for like almost fifty times now still cant get the codes back to normal, good one. Thumbs up for my itchy finger =.=

@ 3am

Finally html codes back to normal after almost 2 hrs of fixing.
Good one =)

Blogging now !

2009-09-09T17:44:00.004+08:00

These few days was really so honey-moon for us,

we spend almost everyday together, even weekends. He ditched his plans for drinking just to accompany me at home, we laugh out loud, we crack fingers. We do this, we do that, we do things that he havent been doing for years now, together :)

He can watched me play monopoly with sis and just smile at our stupidity. He can wait at the void deck for more than an hour for me without any complains, which he had never done before. B, thank you.

Time flies so fast, his bday coming. I still had no idea what to buy for him which is a total headache, bcus he already have everything he wanted including his LV belt. I went out to search, but its just not that kind of look that i wanted, fuck.

Ive got alot of things undone, september and october is really UH-HUH month. B's bday, Baby jerrel full-month, 2409, Bkk trip, and the list goes on :(

goodbye.

2009-08-04T09:41:00.003+08:00

When words are all used up, music speaks.

蔡依林~ 妥協

2009-07-31T01:05:00.007+08:00

Slaps myself for being a fickle minded woman.
After weeks of consideration, im gonna get a haircut tomorrow.
My hair is so long and heavy, i think it weighs 2kg. fuck

ok steady lah, tomorrow haircut with love.
ON lah :):)

Still hesitating ______
Fuck, i lost another hundred off away ystd.
nbcb.

i love you :)

2009-07-30T23:21:00.007+08:00

Sometimes, i seriously can't help but to . . . .

ELLE OH ELLE, LOL ٩(̾●̮̮̃̾•̃̾)۶ ٩(̾●̮̮̃̾•̃̾)۶ ٩(̾●̮̮̃̾•̃̾)۶

Manicure and pedicure ystd, red is hot.
I waited for my fat to come and fetch me for supper, than i realise i walked into a drama again. With 3actor and me. I promised myself not to asked you bout your daily activities anymore, when its all meant to be lies. Forgiven. Drama, like wth. But you always have your ways to make me laugh once again. This is the main reason of me being so crazy over you :)

Anyway, today is a brand new start of my everything.
I won't be slacking that much anymore, promise
If i could perservere, i would like to go jogging almost everyday.
I think it'll be easier if i could dream of me jogging everyday, LOL.

And i seriously hope that bkk trip can be confirm asap,
bcus i dont wanna stay alone in singapore, when that lover of mine is going to taiwan and enjoy with his "brothers" in mid october.

Six months passed in just a blink of eye . . .
Feels like it was just weeks ago that my bestbitch got married, wtf.
Now she is ready to give birth in less that 1month plus time
Till then, we'll have big burnt holes on our pockets.
As for the mummy, she'll be jumping for joy if we get her the 12X londonweight management package. haha

Don't really have the mood for mahjong for the first time, today.
facebook application is lame, to believed or not
to be random, this song is so me. LOL
And lastly, i seriously hope that you won't burn my weekend again.

L. you

2009-07-29T00:59:00.005+08:00

Have you had enough of fun outside ?

I read the archives over and over again,
till now i felt so much than being busted.
Why do you have to make me like a loser once again ?

Things i don't say doesn't means that i don't know at all.
So give me some respect, like how i gave you your pride and respect
I gave you everything you wanted, that cause this tragedy here
I brought this upon myself.

Calling her on party nights just to check whether if she's sober doesn't helps, so what if she's not sober at all ? LOL, try calling me. I'll entertain you like how you wanted her to :):)

LOVES.

2009-07-28T22:06:00.001+08:00

For the last time, this is the last chance.

It's just bcus of loving you .
the rest left unsaid, but i hope you know what i mean :)

with loves,
rnrq.

2009-07-20T17:23:00.002+08:00

friday was craze
saturday was rebellious,
sunday was peaceful :)

yeong accidentally burnt my leg with his cigarette.
luv felt sorry, so he uses cigarette to burnt his hand which leaves identical scar as mine, silly =)

2009-07-18T21:08:00.004+08:00

love me, not.

2009-07-16T17:14:00.010+08:00

Things goes on our way, or not.

I've been very tolerant to all your nonsense
and seriously don't understand what is there that you're unhappy bout.
This entire incident is making me very pissed off,
But i choose not to speak up, Respect us and yourself.
Much appreciated, thank you :)

I've been pretty busy these few days, hahhaaaa
JB in the weekend, for shopping, arcade, dinner, movies.
got no comments bout the behaviour of some in the cinema
Got freak off, like totally.

And boatquay ystd, with luv and his peeps.
his campmate wasn't feeling quite cool ystd, sadly.
thought back, i was in the same situation as him months back
but eventually i got back my luv and everything.

tiring though, but all worth it.
When luv's campmate told me what luv told him in camp
my eye's got watery, total touched.

and this idiot boyf of mine caught a goofy for me.
spent like 10bucks, i almost slap him.
couldn't bear too bcus goofy was way too cuteeee :)

2009-07-10T16:05:00.001+08:00

Those sweet old times

Yours truly.

2009-07-09T18:25:00.004+08:00

When hatred conquers love.

I didn't know how to express my feelings anymore,
as you know im not good at my words.
I don't know how to put up the words that i wanted to rant into an essay.
that's why you don't know how i really feel deep down.
that's also why you didn't even bother to spare a thought for me,
never think of the consequences before doing things,
that might hurt our relationship and me.

I always think that you should have your pride,
I never stopped you from your friends and freedom
You're always forgiven when you lied,
I'd always find excuses to cover your wrong-doings, to minimize my pain.
I always stand by you, support your decisions and stuffs
But once again betrayed everything that i've given you

My best friend is already irritated, hearing me cry and stuffs.
they always gave me great advice, but i refused to heed
even now whenever im down, i don't even call her.
bcus i myself feel so irritated for all this shits.
who can i blame now ? Myself, the dumb fuck.

I believed that i've done my part as a girlfriend, i deserve non of your shits.
your fucking betrayal, that made me like a fool infront once again,
always remember god is fair, what goes around usually comes around.

As i've said, your rachel is not always there for you.
I'd enough, i already don't know how to maintain this shit.
how to put up my courage to believe once you again.
I've got so much to say, but hands just stop typing.

Off.